I'm so tired. No, I'm not tired. I'm EXHAUSTED! I feel like I've been going non-stop for months now. Is it the 55-60 hour work weeks? Is it my bad eating habits? My smoking & drinking? My constant state or worry? Or the fact that I feel the need to over exert myself to prove something to myself? Hell, when did I become so insightful? LOL

OK, let me drop that. I actually started reading other people's journals and even dropped a comment or two. Which I fear now is going to lead people back to my journal & it's gonna be empty. With simplecity2htwn out of town, I have no journal to read, so I've ventured out. simplecity2htwn, come back soon. I miss ya!

My brain is in total shut down mode today. I really should be working so that I don't have to put in 55-60 hour work weeks...but I'm just too out of it. Besides, my boss keeps coming around, opening the door to my office and just saying hi & chit chatting a bit. "Oh, hi mofoka. I know that you have nothing to do and therefore you wanna come bug me. But hows about you stay the F* out of my office. You know, there is a reason the door is closed, moron!" Bitter? Me? NO!

So my sister decides that she wants to be a Scouts mom & now my nephew & niece are part of the Scouts. Problem is that, her resources are limited...so who get's stuck paying the fees, uniform, and all other expenses related to this? The kids godparents! Oh wait...that's ME (for one & my other sis for the other). So now I have to budget that into my already tight monthly budget. And honestly, I don't mind paying for stuff for them... I love them. I would do anything for them. The thing that bothers me that my sis should really come to me and say "Hey, the kids want this. You think you can help?" Instead, she gets the kids to come ask me directly and it hits me from left field, when they need the stuff by like YESTERDAY. How do I say no? I just wish that she would be more conscious. Yeah, I know that I don't have kids and I make more money than she does, but that doesn't mean that I don't have bills that take up my cash. I just think that she thinks that because I'm single, I have money to just spend freely. Hey, dumbass, I have a shitload of bills!

Ok, I'm done venting.

Ciao!